What is becoming of me?

I don't wanna be in this position, really. I do not know:

• What I want
• Where I and they stand
• Whether I am kidding myself

I will soon be a year older and I have just lost sense of direction. In life... I've been running away from this problem for 2 months and I still am. I know it's an important unsettled business that I have got to face. But I can't afford to lose focus now. Not just yet. My work and studies are at stake.... Ooh deutschland? nimmt mich mit dir mit!